July 22nd

All is somewhat right with the world. I’ve mostly paid for my school year. I am slowly getting the things for living the “suite” life! 

See what I did there? 😉

So I’m living in a suite with 7 other people. My roommate sounds like a pretty nice person from what I saw in her email and hopefully it goes well. 

My weight loss hasn’t been going so well. I pretty much completely neglected it after getting a bit cocky from my NYC trip. So today is day 1 again. Going to skip this week’s update video because of this. But I won’t anymore. That’s unfair to the few people that actually watch that video every month. So yeah. Plus I kinda lost the motivation to keep up with the reddit challenge. 

So why am I starting over again for the nth time?

It’s because I went wedding dress shopping. NOT FOR ME! For my sister. We have a similar shape, so I was being used as the model. As they put the gown on me, I felt sick and just depressed. Not because I was trying on a dress when it wasn’t my turn. It was because I saw what I looked like in a dress that I could only dream of wearing. I saw myself and thought that the dress, veil, and everything looked amazing. But I hated how I looked in it so much. More then I’ve ever felt. 

And it hit me. 

I did this to myself. I ate too much. I became lazy. I ignored the signs. 

I want to change.

But wanting isn’t enough. I have to do something. So I am.

I had lunch today. Some pilaf with sesame seeds and green onions. Came out as 1,186 cals with a macro split of 64% Carbs, 27% Fat, and 9% Protein. Need to get more protein but a few days under doesn’t hurt.

Going to get a slurpee to end my eating for today and make a bodyweight plan to do when I have nothing to do.

I ended the day with 1,367 cals, 4,432 steps, and a plan.

06/25

Today is Eid! After waking up at 4 in the morning to pray and cook for the joint Eid Party we have every year with my aunt’s family. I even met a new person that had no one to spend Eid with. Had some cake, rice, fried chicken, and roast beef in an awesome peanut sauce. We spent the day talking, joking around, and I even found hope in actually using my Netflix subscription! Watched “Tucker and Dale vs Evil”. Pretty funny movie. So we finally got home at around 10:20 pm and we are all exhausted. I never got to take a nap at my aunt’s house plus I’m crashing from the cake I had earlier. So I need to sleep soon. But I had to finish this post, so yeah. I’m thinking about incorporating timestamps to my posts for the events in these logs. Helps when I write big chucks of it in multiple parts of the day. I’m glad I’m doing this. It’s another and better (in my opinion) way of keeping track of myself, healthwise and mentally.

Ended the day with an amount that may be way past my maintenance calories, 6,422 steps, and ever growing desire to sleep.