A Letter to Yourself #SSSVEDA Day 3


Reflection on the Past? #SSSVEDA Day 2

This was a weird yet hard video to make. I had to gather my thoughts a little bit more then usual, so I hope I got the point across.


20 Things about me! #SSSVEDA Day 1


Another Amazon Haul (Skincare Edition!)

Yep. It’s another haul. But it’s skincare this time!

I decided to change up the routine that I’d had always done for the past 2 years, which was:

The 3 step Proactiv+ system with the occasional free gifts I got every once in awhile. (I always used the 90 day sizes.)

  • Proactiv+ Skin Smoothing Exfoliator
  • Proactiv+ Complexion Perfecting Hydrator
  • Proactiv+ Pore Targeting Treatment
  • Proactiv+ Re-texturizing Toner
  • Proactiv+ Skin Purifying Mask
  • Proactiv+ Mark Correcting Pads
  • Proactiv+ Liquid SPF Protection

I’d add some Neutrogena products once in awhile, but I ultimately decided to keep to the system. As you can see, it’s nothing but acne control. My skin was okay with this in the beginning, but it got used to the aggressive measures.

This is why they say you should use acne products only when you need them. That way they are the most effective when needed. So I decided to do that since my acne was becoming more hormonal as of late.

So here’s my new routine in the style of the Korean/Japanese/2-step cleansing method in the order I use them:

  • Neutrogena Ultra Light Cleansing Oil
  • Neutrogena Fresh Foaming Cleanser
  • Neutrogena Alcohol-Free Toner
  • Tonymoly I’m Real Mask Sheet (once a week)
  • Proactiv+ Pore Targeting Treatment
  • Proactiv+ Complexion Perfecting Hydrator
  • (Still looking for a night cream)
  • Neutrogena Ultra Sheer Dry-Touch Sunscreen Broad Spectrum SPF 55 (Daytime)

Acne Products

  • Neutrogena Neutrogena Clear Pore Cleanser Mask
  • Neutrogena On-the-Spot Acne Treatment, Vanishing Formula

I’m writing this after my evening routine and my skin feels awesome. It actually feels clean and my skin hasn’t reacted so far. So thumbs up to the change so far. Now I just need to make a routine for when I exercise. The sweat is too real sometimes.



VEDA is Vlog Every Day in April (or August). And I’m doing it this year. Hope I can do some decent posts here to accompany, but all VEDA videos will be on here to view can’t wait!


An Amazon Haul?



I’ve always wanted to wake in my own tv show or anime and find out that I’ve gone back in time. That I can redo all of the things that I felt needed redoing. I even have a list of things I would change just in case my story used amnesia as a plot device.

Obviously, it never happened. But as I look back on those events, I feel glad that time travel isn’t a thing.

I accept my past as it is because it’s apart of my identity. And as a college student, identity is something that becomes very fluid and hard to really grasp.

A big part of my identity was the event that pretty much shook my life. My eventual flunking out of school.

Honestly, that first letter from them saying that I was in danger of flunking felt so fake. I checked the address and even checked my email to make sure. And yes it was for me.

It’s not like I didn’t know that my excuses to start this essay or go hang out with so-and-so helped caused this. But I was so hard in denial that I just brushed it off and went back as if nothing ever happened.

Now I look back and think that it was great that I flunked. I was young, thought a 3.3 GPA in high school meant I was smart, and I was so gifted because  was in a few gov’t programs for accelerated learning. Nope. I was like everybody else. And now I could start fresh like everybody else.

I accept that part of me because it let me see the forest for its’ trees. Now I’m not a jaded person, but I am a little bit more grown up.

So I welcome, encourage, and accept all challenges because I want keep growing.

The Clueless Ronin

via Daily Prompt: Acceptance