Changes in Lifestyle

My first dip after a long time into the world of 1200 calories.

Can I just say that my first IF (16/8 split) meal that was planned around 1200 calories was super filling! Like food baby filling! I was honestly shocked. It’s no wonder people opt for salad as dinner or a snack. But I still can’t get over the fact that eating raw leaves feels so weird. All of the green vegetables (Spinach, Collard Greens, Bitter Leaves, etc) I learned how to make cooked. So eating a salad is really strange to me. I’ll eventually get used to it.

So to briefly go over what my eating is like:

  • I currently do a 16/8 IF schedule where I “fast” for 16 hours and eat in an 8-hour window.
  • I just realized, after recounting my calorie goal and noticing my slowing weight loss, I have changed my calorie goal from 1400 (give or take) to 1200 cals.
  • I’m super picky about my food, but I am slowly getting better at trying new foods.

And here’s my food diary for today:


The snack was a last minute thing, so I had to search for a comparable thing since I didn’t think of looking at the calories.

For exercise, I started C25k and walking on the days between. That leaves Sunday as my rest day. I really want to make working out a habit. So here’s to building habits!

I just wanted to get my thoughts out here since I journal every few days. While these posts may not be regular, they will be detailed about my fitness journey!

Current stats: 22F 5’3.5″ SW: 225.8 lbs CW: 211.2 lbs

Milestones (for now)

215 lbs

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190 lbs

First Month of College 

So orientation was amazing! I made some videos about it on my channel. I had so much fun. I went to everything that I possibly could and spoke up when I could do it confidently, which wasn’t always. But a lot more then most of my first meetings with strangers.

I even made records on my step goals. Went from an average of 5,000 to 20,000 in a few days. Having my shoe insert for my shorter leg really helped with the pain I usually feel from walking too fast and too long. Still fiddling with it to find the right height (still have 2 or 3 more inserts to go!), but it’s better than enduring and potentially hurting my hips and knees.

So my suitemates are awesome! My roommate is awesome! I just need to get used to expressing myself to them. They still think I’m pretty quiet. I am, but I’m also not. So that’s a hurdle. I’m not feeling the best but I’m actually going to the counseling center to try out counseling. I feel that maybe talking to someone who does this as a profession will help me get over these feelings. I even told my mom and my best friend. I keep saying I am depressed, but I don’t really know what it is. Hopefully, this session will iron some wrinkles I have about these feelings.

I’ve been keeping up with my YT schedule for the most part. Unfortunately, it’s been mostly vlogs. Not that is bad necessarily, but that’s not what my channel is about. I actually have planned my first official video a few days after this post goes up. It’ll be my first planned video here, so yeah.

Still have to make my shobby mess of a resume to apply to jobs on campus. I doubt anyone will hire me, but there’s no point in predicting if I haven’t even tossed a line out yet.

I’m doing okay with my classes. First exam is the day before this post. Definitely going to do my best to prepare. Even went to my professor’s office hours!

First exam (Biology for Majors) is on Friday. Slightly nervous. But after meeting with someone in Academic Services and talking about it, I feel better. Going to do some refreshing, laundry, and a practice test.

Good luck to everyone! Cheers and fancy!

July 22nd

All is somewhat right with the world. I’ve mostly paid for my school year. I am slowly getting the things for living the “suite” life! 

See what I did there? 😉

So I’m living in a suite with 7 other people. My roommate sounds like a pretty nice person from what I saw in her email and hopefully it goes well. 

My weight loss hasn’t been going so well. I pretty much completely neglected it after getting a bit cocky from my NYC trip. So today is day 1 again. Going to skip this week’s update video because of this. But I won’t anymore. That’s unfair to the few people that actually watch that video every month. So yeah. Plus I kinda lost the motivation to keep up with the reddit challenge. 

So why am I starting over again for the nth time?

It’s because I went wedding dress shopping. NOT FOR ME! For my sister. We have a similar shape, so I was being used as the model. As they put the gown on me, I felt sick and just depressed. Not because I was trying on a dress when it wasn’t my turn. It was because I saw what I looked like in a dress that I could only dream of wearing. I saw myself and thought that the dress, veil, and everything looked amazing. But I hated how I looked in it so much. More then I’ve ever felt. 

And it hit me. 

I did this to myself. I ate too much. I became lazy. I ignored the signs. 

I want to change.

But wanting isn’t enough. I have to do something. So I am.

I had lunch today. Some pilaf with sesame seeds and green onions. Came out as 1,186 cals with a macro split of 64% Carbs, 27% Fat, and 9% Protein. Need to get more protein but a few days under doesn’t hurt.

Going to get a slurpee to end my eating for today and make a bodyweight plan to do when I have nothing to do.

I ended the day with 1,367 cals, 4,432 steps, and a plan.


So today was pretty stressful, so this is going to be a short update. Got a 7 day job for watching 6 year old twins! Also accepted my financial aid for school. Super stressful. And managed to do some cleaning. 

Ended the day with 1,321 cals, 2,883 steps, and stress filled mind.


Today is Eid! After waking up at 4 in the morning to pray and cook for the joint Eid Party we have every year with my aunt’s family. I even met a new person that had no one to spend Eid with. Had some cake, rice, fried chicken, and roast beef in an awesome peanut sauce. We spent the day talking, joking around, and I even found hope in actually using my Netflix subscription! Watched “Tucker and Dale vs Evil”. Pretty funny movie. So we finally got home at around 10:20 pm and we are all exhausted. I never got to take a nap at my aunt’s house plus I’m crashing from the cake I had earlier. So I need to sleep soon. But I had to finish this post, so yeah. I’m thinking about incorporating timestamps to my posts for the events in these logs. Helps when I write big chucks of it in multiple parts of the day. I’m glad I’m doing this. It’s another and better (in my opinion) way of keeping track of myself, healthwise and mentally.

Ended the day with an amount that may be way past my maintenance calories, 6,422 steps, and ever growing desire to sleep. 


So now I’m doing this daily at the end of day. Feels a lot more relaxed. Anyway, today was another day full of errands because tomorrow is Eid! Ramadan is over for now and everyone is preparing for the festivities. My family is preparing some food for tomorrow, but I think I’m going to hold back a ton from eating. I had a cake slice today and I think I’m done with cake for the year. Again. My day’s calories, after logging the cake before making my dinner and lowering some amounts, are bust. 1,860 cals for the day and I don’t feel the best. Took my mind off by doing some Japanese on the Duolingo app and man am I rusty. Today was also the first day of lower my carbs from the rice I eat. I will stay with the new lower amount for about 3 to 4 weeks to get used to it. And last but not least, my mom got me the Canon G7X Mark II as an Eid gift! Better quality videos and I can finally stop using her phone as my main camera. (>.>’)

I ended the day with 1,860 cals, 9,914 steps (!), and list of potential videos.

Weight Loss Log (05/26-06/23)

Age and Gender: 22 F

Height: 5’3.5″

Highest Weight Ever: 225.8

Current Weight (On Last Day):

Goal Weight: Will fill in as time goes on….

Week of 05/26-06/02

*-Written after the events.

*05/26: Made lunch (1,265 cals), had takeout at dinner (~1,397 cals), walked a ton that day. My Fitbit was on fire!!! At least for me. 10,408 steps this day. I feel that it was an okay day to indulge, but I probably felt so bad at giving in to temptation.

*05/27: 1st day of Ramadan. Had a sip of water in the morning. Eating earlier on upset my stomach like nobody’s business. Did okay with walking, but didn’t make goal. Only 6,001 steps. Made dinner to break fast (1,310 cals) and drank 3 half liter bottles of water.

*05/28: 2nd day of Ramadan. Sip of water in the morning. Made dinner (1,354 cals), had 3 bottles of water. Not a lot of activity today (2,226 steps), but that is a usual Sunday.

*05/29: 3rd day of Ramadan. Sip of water in the morning. Woke up for work (10am-1pm). Took care of an energetic little bugger. Walked as much as I could to and from work. Ended up with 8,209 steps! Met my goal! Came home, took a nap due to heat exhaustion, made dinner (1,373 cals) with the usual 3 bottles, and called it a day.

*05/30: 4th day of Ramadan. A bigger sip of water to avoid another bout of heat exhaustion during the day. Did some errands for school. Since I was fasting, I couldn’t use getting fast food as a way to waste time. So I walked around at a steady pace. Ended up with 5,667 steps. Got home, made dinner (1,522 cals), drank 3 bottles of water, took a multivitamin and some iron, and ended my day.

*05/31: 5th day of Ramadan. Sip of water in the morning. Woke up, went to the doctor for a physical for school, came back home, and idled around waiting to break fast. Ended the day with 4,938 steps, dinner (1,612 cals), 3 bottles of water, multivitamin and iron.

*06/01: 6th day of Ramadan. Big sip of water because of errands for the day. Went for errands using the metro. Came back home eariler then expected. Made dinner (1,607 cals), had 3 bottles of water, took supplements, and got to 7,150 steps.

*06/02: 7th day of Ramadan! One done already! Half a bottle of water since I knew I’d be outside and it was going to be warm that day. Went to Friday prayer. Just as hot as I expected. Did some more errands with my mom and headed back home. Made dinner (1,429 cals), took supplements, drank water (usual amount), and ended the day with 4,773 steps.

Week of 06/03-06/10

*06/03: 8th day of Ramadan. Had a small bowl of food and a whole bottle of water. I thought I was going to exercise later in the day, but I didn’t. Did some errands during the day. Had dinner (900 cals), water, got to 4,277 steps and ended my day.

06/04: 9th day of Ramadan. I only had a sip this morning. Nothing major happened throughout the day. I just lazed around and napped a few times. Made dinner (1,395 cals), took supplements, and drank my water. My day ended with 3,037 steps. Pretty sad, but expected as it was Sunday.

06/05: 10th day of Ramadan. Decided to switch up my routine for just today since mom made some food I haven’t had in about a years time. So I ate that in the morning (~650 cals) and a ton of water even though it was going to rain today. The humidity will really drain you. Did some errands for school and mailed some things. Started prepping my dinner early since I had to do some math to fit dinner into my calorie budget. My stomach has been growling as if hungry, but I don’t feel hungry. I think I’ll stick with my normal IF schedule for now. Ended the day with 7,988 steps, dinner (1,014 cals), water, and supplements. Cycle started.

*06/06: 11th day of Ramadan. Today was Drivers Skill test. I made sure to drink a lot and get a lot of sleep. I had to pass this test on the first try otherwise I’d panic for all successive tries. I passed it though with only one mistake. Came back home a celebrated with a nice takeout meal. I know I shouldn’t but I was craving it. I figured I should just probably eat at maintenance for a few days to calm my cravings down. Ended the day with a lot of calories and 4,143 steps.

06/07: 12th day of Ramadan. Today was definitely going to be a maintenance day also. I think after today I’d be fine with the intense cravings. Lazed around until 12pm, then took a 2 hour walk. Burned about 961 calories for that walk plus I made it farther then I did last time! Used my quick errand to the supermarket as the last mile of my walk and bought some groceries. Strength workout bonus! Had about 9 oz of potato wedges, two donuts, and 3 oz of seasoned chicken. Probably still a little under goal. I’m proud I didn’t make more food. But calorie counting starts again tomorrow. My day ended with 11,630 steps and some sleep for my tires legs. Just realized that this is a great way to prep for walking the normal distances in Sierra Leone!

06/08: 13th day of Ramadan. Woke up surprisingly early and relatively painlessly. Did some errands and got some takeout (~1,700 cals). Had my nostalgic anime session with my best friend and talk about our NY trip. I ended my day with 4,821 steps.

06/09: 14th day of Ramadan. Had to do an errand for my mom, so I headed out after eating my meal for the day (1,435 cals). Not much happened, so my steps ended up being 4,501. T-minus 3 days to New York!

06/10: 15th day of Ramadan. Today I’m cleaning so I don’t have any chores to do when I come back home. So that’ll be a workout in itself since I haven’t cleaned my room in a month. -_- Made lunch (1,308 cals) before heading out with mom for some routine errands.

Week of 06/11-06/17

*06/11: 16th day of Ramadan. Super lazy day but I managed to clean up my room a bit. Made myself a smaller calorie meal (1,246 cals) to help with that and start to offset the possible overflow from my upcoming trip. I ended the day with 5,049 cals.

06/12: 17th day of Ramadan. First day of my NYC trip! Had some breakfast (500 cals?) Mom cooked and I didn’t see it to roughly guess) before I left so  Got to walk around and get some great footage. I’m getting used to this whole vlogging thing little by little. Had some awesome NYC pizza (660 cals). I get why you have to fold it. Now I need to get some Chicago deep dish pizza. Walked soooooo much. 14,522 steps to be exact!

06/13: 18th day of Ramadan. Second day of NYC trip! Had to switch some things since the schedule got a bit mixed up due to activity changes. We went to the zoo, had some lunch (1,044 cals) , got on two tours buses, got a hotdog (563 cals), walked around Times Square, had some froyo with some M&M’s (200 cals), went on a night tour of the city, and saw an awesome show in Time Square! Ended the day tired, having walked 16,263 steps (!).

*06/14: 19th day of Ramadan. Third and last day of NYC trip! Was too much of a stressful day to log in. Ended the day with 1,636 cals because I had no idea how hungry I really was after eating that Japanese food (no wonder most of them are in a healthier BMI range; the food I was was so low calorie!) and 7,583 steps. Not bad for a hectic day.

06/15: 20th day of Ramadan. First day back home and I am super exhausted. I didn’t even cross any time zones, so why am I so tired? I even went to bed as soon as I started to doze off. Well, the trip gave me some better perspective on planning a trip with my friend. But man is it expensive! I even ate less on purpose and still somehow left broke! So I made lunch (1,342 cals). This will be the last day I am not fasting. Back to it tomorrow! We are in the last 10 days! Ended the day with  steps.

*06/16: 21st day of Ramadan. Was still exhausted from my travels. I have no idea why. I did walk a ton plus I went to bed super late on the last day, so that might have contributed. Ended the day with a measly 2,561 steps, 1,411 cals, and a lot of naps.

*06/17: 22nd day of Ramadan. So I had an interview this day. Got up early and arrived way too early. So I walked about 0.8 mi to the place I was meeting the interviewers and found a nearby park to wait out the 20 minutes to arrive “on time.” Ended the day with 1,324 cals, 9,253 steps, and anxiousness.

Week of 06/18-06/23

*06/18: 23rd day of Ramadan. Well, this was an especially lazy day. I didn’t even leave home. Didn’t get the job either. Ended the day with 3,709 steps, 1,291 cals, and some disappointment.

*06/19: 24th day of Ramadan. Did my sworn duty of being a hermit and stayed inside for most of the day except when I went to the post office 0.2 mi from home. Ended the day with 1,365 cals, 3,649 steps, and what seems to be hot flashes?

06/20: 25th day of Ramadan. All I did was venture into the humid concrete plain, which is known as outside, to my local Giant. Walked back with a bunch of groceries and did some random chore at home. Started planning my next trip too! I also weighed myself. I had some apprehension. But I didn’t gain anything to my surprise! Yay! Only a few more days till weigh in! Ended the day with 1,340 cals, 5,626 steps, and a bit of anticipation!

06/21: 26th day of Ramadan. So I started my day off carrying an 18 lb package down three flights of stairs only to find out that I can’t return it to my local post office. It has to go to a UPS facility, which is super far for the not-driving-right-now me. So I went back up the stairs to put it back. Then I went for my walk. That was a bad idea. I din’t even get to the turning point I set because of the heat! I knew I should’ve used my apartments gym, but no. I thought I could tough it out in the hot sun while fasting. This is a decision I deeply regret. Few hours later, I finally dealt with my school business and had to redesign my entire Fall schedule because certain things were already fulfilled, or not needed, or locked out from my taking them. Now I’m deciding between Spanish (my best friend speaks Spanish and is a polyglot so I got help) or take Intro to Computer Science (and learn about a developing field that can benefit my learning and resume!). I’m probably going to take both as my year goes on but which to take first is the question. It’s a hour before the time to break fast and I’m probably not going to cook my own food. I’m probably going to eat what my mom cooked last night. I need to ask her how she made it because I was only their for part of the cooking process, so I can only guesstimate what i saw. Usually, it comes down to how much oil she added or if she added at all. Ended the day with ~1,400 cals, 8,200 steps, and a bit of weight off my shoulders.

06/22: 27th day of Ramadan. So I lost everything that I wrote for the day, but I said most of it in my video. That’ll teach me to not save frequently again. Basically, my skin and acne got a lot better in my opinion due to my weight loss and practice of IF. Didn’t really do much, but eh. Going to eat some food my mom made that we have had in a loooooooong time. Ended the day with 1,988 cals, 2,963 steps, and some technical difficulties.

06/23: 28th day of Ramadan. Yay! The end of this very long post. Frankly I really like it, but I’m going to go ahead a switch to the daily version. I mean I’m tracking daily with my calories. So why not put some emotion into it!

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Happy Mother’s Day and Birthday to you, mom. Love ya for all the thing you do for me and help make possible. Wishing for many more birthdays and mother’s days!


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